Today was supposed to be the first day that I started this  “no music” thing, to be honest I was keeping it up; I had my updates from part of the day already written, and I was waiting on a thumbs up from flowmo about and HTML issue; and well I broke it.

I found out something horrible (I really don’t want to go into details at the moment, maby when I’m not considering going down to starbucks and ordering a venti cup of espresso to distract me from my feelings.) Anyway, I’m a bit upset right now and I really just can’t so I’ll just be listening to Imogen for a few hours untill I pass out from exhaustion. The “No Music” project will have to wait, at least untill I’m out of a spiralling depression. I’ll keep you posted.

Still, here are my posts that were in progress and ready to be posted from earier today (when I was creuly ignorant of my sad realities;) consider them a sneak peak for the full project coming…coming…

6:30 am: I drove from my grandmother’s house up to where I live this morning, (I was staying over to take care of my cousin for the night) and I felt a bit odd driving quietly alone. Topping this off was my quiet breakfast, also alone; the quiet really reminds me that I’m by myself, it’s a bit eery. Well, I’m sure it will improve later in the afternoon after I get home.

10:46 am: I just got back from my math class (I’m taking summer courses to get a start on the fall as part of this scholarship.) I’m feeling really sleepy, the lack of music is making it hard for me to stay awake; I can’t sleep, I have a 2pm class, and if I sleep now I’ll be groggy and unable to focus…then again…that’s not much worse than I am right now…hmmm those covers…they look oh so tempting….

1:14 pm: I managed to resist the urge to sleep, my friend rex is helping me stay awake (on msn.) It’s odd I have been having this strong desire to reach for my headphones everytime I sit down at my computer, I think If I wasn’t on msn I would probably end up getting tired again… I have a 2 pm class, which will probably keep me entertained, what I’m really dreading is this evening, I’ll end up in front of my computer untill I go excercise, that will really be the test for me; now that I think about it, I’ve never excercised without my ipod… (I really hope that I can actually bring myself to do it without it, I knew I’d be putting my mental health on the line, but not my physical body….hmmm….)